there's a gorilla in our midst - an 800 pound gorilla for that matter! we just walk gingerly around it - moving to and fro as if it's not there. seems to work somehow ...
so all of this chemo has taken over jane body and mind (but not her spirit!) - she really can't remember things, feels a bit puffy, more tired than usual, etc.. basically, it totally sucks! and i am utterly intolerant and impatient when she forgets these small details, so i've come to the conclusion that i am a horrible caregiver, and by extension, a horrible person! the kids - well, they just make fun of her to add more levity (and misery!) to the whole process ... quel horreur!
another day slips by ... school conferences for marlee (great!), which brings a smile to our faces. election results do the same, and as previously noted we are both happy with either democratic candidate, so that's all good. and to further keep the train moving, i suggest we return to wednesday night dinners in the city as a family ... but by the time that rolls around, jane is feeling sore and tired. we opt for sushi out here, and stocking the house with groceries (forcing the kids into unwelcome, and in their opinion, unwarranted child labor!).
we round out the evening with rootbeer and our netflix copy of gorillas in the mist - the story of dian fossey in rwanda. very inspiring and frightening at the same time ... this lone ranger who almost singlehandedly stopped the extinction of the african mountain gorilla, while suffering through their horrific slaughter and her own eventual demise. incredible, as today it is possible to venture into virunga national park, just two hours from kigali, and be up close with these amazing souls.
no gorillas for jane until a week from friday, so we're just focusing on staying in our groove until then - eating well, friends, exercise, and life!
so all of this chemo has taken over jane body and mind (but not her spirit!) - she really can't remember things, feels a bit puffy, more tired than usual, etc.. basically, it totally sucks! and i am utterly intolerant and impatient when she forgets these small details, so i've come to the conclusion that i am a horrible caregiver, and by extension, a horrible person! the kids - well, they just make fun of her to add more levity (and misery!) to the whole process ... quel horreur!
another day slips by ... school conferences for marlee (great!), which brings a smile to our faces. election results do the same, and as previously noted we are both happy with either democratic candidate, so that's all good. and to further keep the train moving, i suggest we return to wednesday night dinners in the city as a family ... but by the time that rolls around, jane is feeling sore and tired. we opt for sushi out here, and stocking the house with groceries (forcing the kids into unwelcome, and in their opinion, unwarranted child labor!).
we round out the evening with rootbeer and our netflix copy of gorillas in the mist - the story of dian fossey in rwanda. very inspiring and frightening at the same time ... this lone ranger who almost singlehandedly stopped the extinction of the african mountain gorilla, while suffering through their horrific slaughter and her own eventual demise. incredible, as today it is possible to venture into virunga national park, just two hours from kigali, and be up close with these amazing souls.
no gorillas for jane until a week from friday, so we're just focusing on staying in our groove until then - eating well, friends, exercise, and life!
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