26 December 2007

mixed media


i guess i'm getting mixed messages.

on one hand, jane tells me that we need to 'go slow' - she's not certain how she's going to feel as she proceeds with treatments starting next friday. she's not sure how much energy she'll have after chemo, or whether it will take all weekend to recuperate and gain strength. on the other hand, she is refreshingly 'flip' about the whole affair, brushing it off as a necessary evil which will allow her to eat chips and pretzels (medical recommendation to ward off nausea). i make the mistake of suggesting that kashi bars would be a much healthier alternative to this - men, take it from me ... don't ever suggest a 'good' substitute when your woman is given the green light to eat junk food - EVER!

and on yet another hand (did i run out?) she tells me that she'll probably be fine and would be able to have a nice shabbat dinner on friday night (huhhh??? that one DEFINITELY does not make any sense to me). then she says that as we are cancelling our family trip to asia in february, she'll need to do something relaxing if we reschedule for april - lie on a beach, etc.. and on yet another hand, she is unloading dishwashers and shlepping things around contrary to my outrageous protests - uggghhhhh!!!

so basically, my own confusion reflects the general havoc wreaked upon us by the breast cancer diagnosis. so we trudge along, wine in hand, or latté in hand if it's before 2pm. we don't really know WHAT is happening!?!

perhaps ignorance is bliss. as soon as we have it figured out, we'll fill you in ... unless you already understand what we clearly don't - and if this is the case, feel free to enlighten us!

h

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