05 April 2008

now that's better


sometimes when things don't seem to be going right, you realize it's all in the attitude.

i honestly believe that part of the bad karma we've been feeling, oozing, living, has to do with our general outlook.

cancer + age - (insecurity in future x teenage years) + college = insanity!

we have a late dinner with the kids and marlee's friend. baguette, smoked salmon, assorted cheeses, salad - light and easy. marlee's friends' father comes in and tells us he's struck by the spirit of place, by color, by youth. and he talks - about books, intellect, ego - and we realize ... all is not lost! there is hope! sometimes it just takes someone else to say, in their own unobtrusive way - "hey, it's all okay!". an impartial observer if you will.

so that's how the day wraps up - maybe, on top of everything, we're just overexposed to the craziness of american culture - the hummers, the fake body parts, the constant drive for more - and we haven't had that family dose of foreign travel. so we've gone a bit stir crazy, demented. and we just need to be snapped back into shape and get our act together.

hopefully we're blindly moving in the right direction, heaven knows we need it. we had a more youthful, unbeaten spirit after jane was diagnosed and had surgery than we have at this point -doesn't really make any sense.

so thanks to this new acquaintance for shaking us up a bit with an infusion of positivity!

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